I went with the Bastard last night to watch my first Snow Patrol
My life goes through phases, as does everyones, and I have come to realize that my phases seem to come with their own soundtrack. There was a time, before I headed to New York, right around Samhain in Massachusetts when my soundtrack began a new rotation; slowly replacing Lucero
with Snow Patrol
While in Salem, during this soundtrack change and in honor of the strength I found through my connecting to the energy of Inanna I got this tattoo:
It is the 8 pointed Star of Inanna, also called a Rosetta. Inanna, as I have come to understand her, is a representation of an "All" Goddess. Being that she encompasses the energies of all Goddess that are now split into many. Thus she is one of the Great Goddesses and the oldest documented Goddess; as in one of the first written about Goddesses as it was her people, the Mesopotamians, that created writing.
Associating myself with Inanna energies was a natural progression of my growth and maturity in my understanding of myself and the cycles of life which we all go through.
I started my journey connected to Pallas Athene; the warrior Goddess, focused on logic, strength and creativity. When I became Queen I was forced to open myself up to the energies of Psyche; the watery goddess, focused on understanding love, compassion and the emotional human soul. That was hard for me, I had always surpressed and controlled having any emotions as emotions were weakness and pointless for survival and choices in life.
It makes sense that I would follow up these two very opposite Goddess energies by connecting to one that encompasses them both. Inanna, the Great Goddess, is most associated with the energies of love (psyche), war (athena) and fertility (the All) and even though she is linked to fertility she is not a mother Goddess (and I can never be a mother). She combines the elements of the energies I have connected to in my life; whom I have become so far.
The 8 pointed star, her symbol is for me then a representation of understanding the balance of the whole, which is not just simply being in the middle and having things weigh evenly. It is the chaos which is life, it is magic, it is water, it is fire, it is air, it is earth, it is creation and destruction, it is the All. Where all things begin, where all things return.
The 8 pointed star itself is a Gnostic symbol, known as the octagram of creation. It is related to the planet Venus. It is used to invoke magick and also is a protecting ideogram. It is also a Chaosphere. Chaospheres have 8 points - order 90 degrees and chaos 45 degrees; life and death as a whole.
While sitting through the opening band, The Plain White T's
, at the concert for the new soundtrack of my life, Snow Patrol
, I had this overwhelming feeling that no matter how chaotic the moment and how much I felt I just shouldn't have come, I needed to be there, something about this was important, there was a reason for it, sit back, shut everything out and watch and listen.
The opening act finished up, the lights came up, they began unloading the stage and uncovering Snow Patrol's
instruments. I love drums, want to know how to play them, so I always check out the drums with a strange sense of anticipation and as they uncovered the drum set for Snow Patrol
I gasped!, the bass kick drum head was black with a red star of Inanna on it! I stared and counted the points several times to ensure I wasnt just seeing things and then I leaned over to the Bastard and said, "thats my star."
The Bastard immediately asked if the star was associatd to anything else. I noted it's also a nautical symbol, but it wasnt sitting in a manner that it represented a nautical compass at all. I decided to stop talking about it with him at that point as I wanted to focus on the fact that the exact same star tattooed on my neck and hanging from a chain around it as well was there in front of me in red, the color I represented for Fall; Geburah, on drums; the instrument I love the most. Combine all this with the weird feeling that I just had to be here, had to be at this show, well, what the hell was this all about?
I suddenly went in a million directions, analyzing, wondering why they chose that design. I was excited for the show and all I could think about was going home and researching the star and Snow Patrol's
choice and connection to it.
Snow Patrol then proceded to start their set off with "If There's A Rocket Tie Me To It"
. This song has been presented a few times in my journal recently as it has struck a chord with me. I closed my eyes and just let myself connect to the song, I opened my eyes smiling finally and started singing along.
The whole night was like this, I knew all the words to every song and Snow Patrols frontman Gary Lightbody provided witty banter with the audience that made you feel appreciated, welcomed and desired. I can honestly say that even if I didnt know a damn thing about Snow Patrol I would have had an amazing time.
The show ended, they did their obligatory goodbyes and, as is the norm, we fans stood in the dark staring at the stage clapping and cheering for an encore. We got one and at the same time I think I got my answer about the Star of Innana.
The encore started with a Star Wars esque intro rolling across the big background stage screen announcing they would be playing their 16 minute long triple song combination entitled "The Lightening Strike". This is yet another of their songs I have been trying to decipher meaning to in my life.
Following the screened announcement the music began to play and in the center of the screen floated the Red Star of Inanna. The music played, and as if it was on a string the orgami star spun slowly and as the music intensified it began to disburse pieces of color, other orgami stars, rosettas and shapes came wheeling out of it.
Soon the words to the first song of the triplicity, ("what if this storm ends
"), were being sung and the star unfolded and burst forth in a spiral, spinning into and out of itself, with its little orgami shapes infusing it.
Soon enough it spun into the symbol of infinity and as the song neared ending it had opened up to show all the oragami pieces floating on the screen and the Universe as we know it was hanging there.
Then the second song of the triplicity, ("the sunlight through the flags"
) started and the orgami shapes on the screen became the planets as we know it; space, and the camera angle floated through orgami space, ships, stations, satelites, planets and a hundred million suns (stars), leading to the sun. As it reached the sun the stage was filled with bright yellow light as the orgami sun stood bright on the screen in the background.
As the third song in the triplicity, ("daybreak"
) started the view moved through to the orgami earth falling upon the planet and following the lyrics exploritarly showing people and places.
The whole piece ended as the focus fell into the bottom of the ocean and returned back into the Star it had started from.
For me the message was unmistakeable; I just got it and so many weird conicidences collided into one and there was a whole new door waiting at the end.
I told the Bastard what I thought of the connection to the star. How the Star of Inanna is representative of the Goddess herself, the source of all life and to where we all return, like mother nature. He said something along the lines of, "it means that to you but to others maybe its just a snowflake and a bunch of oragami. It's all up to each person to decide what it means to them."
Can't disagree with him, it still hurt though.
I stopped talking and just kept thinking about the whole night in my head. Realizations of so many other connections floating in and out of it. It was as if a confirmation was granted me and at the same time a whole new puzzle was placed at my feet all at the same time.
This video is a live version from Snow Patrol's
performance of this same encore of "The Lightening Strike" in Dublin, Ireland. It is only the first song but it will give a better idea of what I was doing a very inadequate job of describing.
There is so much more to explore now and I dont find it funny that it is happening at the same time as my first inniation into priestesshood is about to begin.