Turning Back on the Light

[tigrissky]

"There's nothing you can do that is more important than being fulfilled. You become a sign, a signal, transparent to transcendence; in this way, you will find, live, and become a realization of your personal myth." ~Joseph Campbell

The sign I have become, the signal I have been giving off, is no longer one of beauty, strength, and honor. It instead portrays a woman, scared to be who she is, scared to express herself, hermitting away in a hopes to avoid ... many things.

"Some days, she deeply connects to an unnamed longing ..."~Sukhvinder Sircar

"...but, when the neurotic ambivalence is resolved, she begins to see the interactions between everything, the relation between everything." ~Anais Nin

Some of what I see is subjective, for there is no other way I can experience it. There is no other way I can see it, be with it, understand it, love it; despite it's elusiveness.

Some of what I see is objective, as facts are bound to be. They sit down in front of me, let me trip over them, waiting for me to realize there is just no way to get around them; despite my elusiveness.

It is the combining of the subjective and objective which, as if upon a bitter wind, wail the only question of importance throughout the extending branches of my life: "What are you willing to lose?"

It is the echelon of wisdom upon which my honor code is built that answers, "Until you are willing to lose everything you shall gain nothing."

It is age, it is a child who never belonged, it is a woman wanting nothing more than to be loved that wonders ... "what can I gain by losing it all now?"

The answer: Myself.

"There's nothing you can do that is more important than being fulfilled. You become a sign, a signal, transparent to transcendence; in this way, you will find, live, and become a realization of your personal myth." ~Joseph Campbell

~TigressSky~